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Thu, 24 Dec 2009 03:57:52 GMT

w0w.

its been a while since i poured out my thoughts and experiences into writing and unto this blog...

=)

Finally!

Its the start of the xmas vacation ^^

4 days rin naman yun and I couldn't be more thankful =)

plus its my favorite time of the year, hehehe =)

There are a lot of movies that i'm planning to watch..
Like:
The Blind Side
Avatar
Sherlock Holmes
Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 ^_^
Paano na Kaya

la lang.. =)

hay.. its so nice to be home and to hog the laptop habang hindi pa nagigising yung sister ko, hehehe.

I'm so looking forward to once again watch Disney Pixar's "UP" ^^D
sister has a copy in this laptop
but me have no idea where to look for it or if it is in her own desktop and files that i have no access to. hehehe.

nagpapalipas lang ng oras and enjoying myself
even though i feel sleepy and all that =)

but then, oversleeping for me actually makes me very unproductive and weird, so might as well just have enough sleep later, hehehe.

maximizing the day, ika nga, hehehe

hmn.. i guess i should really start reading once more
kasi gasgas na yung english ko
and i need to brush up on my vocabulary
so that i can express myself better through words, hehehe =)

I'm still looking for a way on what to do exactly when it comes to reading stuff and all...
and medyo nawawala narin naman ang craving ko for evermore
but now that i mentioned it, it seems fair enough to read something like that, hehehe.

I love that kind of fiction wherein super powers are common and but natural, hehehe.

~~~

hmn.. its been a while since i last took a picture of anything, hehehe =)

hmn.. i guess i am that preoccupied with life that i don't bother doing it, hehehe. =)

A good thing, perhaps, hehehe...

~~~

Hay, calls na dire-diretso next week...
Oh well, that's life ^_~

=)

andami ko pang gustong gawin,
pero inaatake na ako ng antok =(

hindi ko naman pwedeng sabayan si kathy mamaya sa internet...
tsk tsk tsk...

sa madaling araw siguro, hehehe. =)

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 21:29:34 GMT

This song tugs heartstrings for me right now... =)

For the longest time, it held the meaning that kimmy.n8 wanted to tell me...

Then the song and lyrics stood out on its own while I was waiting for Trina yesterday at the MRT station... =)

^_^

Shobs?

Thank you for yesterday ^_^

You made me feel Christmas... ^^

=) Enjoy the song =)

(mm, i haven't seen the musical for this though =)
just have the slightest idea of what wicked was all about and all...

but this is such a really really nice song in itself ^_^ )

^_^ squee

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 20:24:53 GMT

I couldn't be more thankful =)

Its been a while since i was able to publicly blog about what's happening and what nots
and I'm just really so thankful... =)

For everything that is going on my way right now =)

Hay...

^_^

ito po lamang muna ^^)

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 22:11:18 GMT

It's so nice to be home... =)

There is no greater feeling
than to rest in your own abode ^_^

=)

hmn... sumisikat nanaman ang araw,
and nagsisimula nanaman me na maging zombie, hehehe...

^_^

grabe, the joke?
its now a reality for me...

Pag may liwanag na, i get so sleepy
and then pag pagabi na,
i start to wake up and get energized, lol... =)

Sat, 12 Dec 2009 08:21:55 GMT

In a very noisy n bustling cafe, waiting 4 kimmy..

Got her xmas gift-
pride n prejudice vcd ü

got it on instinct ü

something tells me it wud click a gear in kimmy's life ü

i would lyk my friend 2 meet sme1 n be happy ü

...

Shobe shard 2me a story n it kinda makes me ponder abt it..

Its abt long term goals n short ones re: giving..

I dunno, it jst put things in perspective...

Ugh, i need a drink..

No, smething digestive friendly ü

i wonder if kimmy n i can talk in dis rowdy cafe. Hn.

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Sat, 12 Dec 2009 07:28:37 GMT

Im drunk wt antok.
*yawns*
am on d mrt 2 gateway 2 meet kimmy.n8 and my body wud lyk 2 rest n jst snooze ü

i decided 2 still get up frm bed n travel
as kimmy jst txts n asks 2 meet up 1 in a blue moon..

Was tempted 2 jst cancel n all but kimmy is expectng me, and i knw hw it feels when ur looking 4ward 2 smething and it doesnt go as expectd.

I dnt want 2do that 2 kimmy..

=)

i value her that mch.
Its d least i cud do, show up ü

my stomach is growling 2..

And dis guy in front of me doesnt knw d concept f personal space. Tsk.

Will update ü
could use a beer ü

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Fri, 11 Dec 2009 23:29:55 GMT

God,

Thank you thank you po for this day... ^_^

Thank you for the added wisdom,
and perspective...
it really brought peace...

I have so much to thank you for,
esp on this day of abundance...

I know, sometimes, i can be very very hard headed...

Thank you for bringing people into my life

and I hope and pray that You continue to bless the people I love and cherish,
Guide us with Your grace...
and keep us, under your angels´ wings...

Thank you thank you po Lord...

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 05:59:05 GMT

I really could use a few more winks
if you ask me...
but for some weird reason,
i really end up waking up around this hour (or this time coz i´ve been awake for a couple of minutes now)

...

I wonder if this is just ok
or wll it take its toll a little bit later...

hay...

I feel sleepy again...

zzz....

hmn.. might as well do get that some sleep, ne?

=)

to speak, or not to speak

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 23:48:36 GMT

1. coz you so suck at showing appreciation. I´m not saying you don´t, but sometimes you just suck at reciprocating thy language of love. and it sucks.

2. you´re such a control freak.

3. i know i probably should just shut my mouth, but trust me, i´m still choosing the lesser evil. don´t wait na mawalan ako ng gana coz my hand is on the door.

4. its just like the scene in My Bestfriend´s Wedding: Who´s chasing who? Stop it Julia Roberts, *bangs head*

5. Focus on the now.

6. Jojo: meet me halfway... sa sampung hakbang ko papalapit sau, gumalaw ka naman... kahit limang hakbang lang...

7. I´m so in the verge of pagrerebelde. I don´t do being rebellious. Konti pa.

8. Sana, matutuhan mo akong pahalagahan. Yun lang.

9. ...

10. minsan, gusto ko namang maramdaman ng harap harapan... hindi yung nababanaag ko lang, hindi yung inaakala ko lang...

sana... maramdaman ko naman ng buong buo...

hindi yung para akong nanlilimos ng pagmamahal...
hindi yung parang naririnig ko lang...

coz love takes on a courage...

Sana lang...

11. Ika nga ng novel na After Eden, can we play another game?...

12. Sana magkaroon din ako ng karapatan na magalit... kahit minsan lang...

13. WHY DO I HAVE TO PAY FOR THE SINS OF PAST LOVES????

The Time traveler's notes

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 21:58:21 GMT

I need 2 recharge my batteries..

The sun rises, peeks thru my windows..
As i return to now..

I have no ryt to complain, i knw.

But knowing is 1 thing,
feeling is another..

I look at tomorrow,
i dont knw where to begin..

I imagine you beside me, sleeping..
and i

have no idea

what to do next..

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Time traveler's wife - trailer2

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 22:10:03 GMT

"We named her Alba" ü

"You saw her?" ü

"She was so beautiful ü"

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Sat, 05 Dec 2009 23:52:14 GMT

its a beautiful sunday morning
and i´m really appreciating the big windows of my room.
The room is still under, mm, inaayos pa sya
and the fact na hindi pa muna kinakabit yung blinds
is really doing me a good thing...

I have always loved big windows
and with light and breeze constantly streaming into the room
its very relaxing and all that...

its like, we can all breathe and all ^_^
Happiness... =)

kung ako lang masusunod, i´ll leave out the blinds and let the windows be as big and wide as they could get ^^
but, oh well, i share the room
and thats ok...

I´m thankful for now... =)

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 03:31:06 GMT

I now kinda understand why people depict a bright idea
to something like a light bulb clicking on in ur head ^_^

astig. ^^

*sigh*

Time traveler's wife - trailer

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 21:24:32 GMT

I remember a scene -
when d wife was eating in d diner, alone..
while in the backgrnd she was saying how lonely it was to wait 4 henry and difficult, without him..

.. I feel the same way..
Lonely, at the end of the day.. =c

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Targets

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 22:10:53 GMT

On d bus as usual, willing d tym...

Im tweaking project alpha in my head wyl swirling in d thoughts f long term goals..

Having ur own house/wanting it, entails settling dwn, starting a family..

D thought s knocking in my head 4 d things i want 4 project alpha entails big windows.. A green lawn is a nice thing too, if u ask me.

Im jst wondering hw far and long do i plot project alpha, and if im going 2 settle 4 needs as of nw, or needs eventually..

Ryt nw, i knw dat im trying 2 jst fight 4 space, but in no condition entirely wanting to move out coz i will jst fil entirely lonely. And its pntless, if u ask me as 2 nlng nmn kmi ni mama, mghhiwalay pb kami?

Though i want to keep that "option" that space f my own..

Ryt nw, these are my needs n circumstances..

I have my roots, i just wud lyk 2 branch out..

Pero ayoko dng sobrang planuhin yng buhay k, kc nkakasakal..

Lets see..

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Tue, 01 Dec 2009 05:06:02 GMT

People do a lot of stupid things in their life...
and one of the hardest thing to do is to rebound from that stupidity
and to ask forgiveness
and repair the damage that has been done...

You turn into a monster for one moment,
and you go back to being human...
no idea how to patch things up and all...

I´m a coward, i know...
and it breaks my heart

Blogging using Nemo

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 23:17:08 GMT

There are just so many things that I want to accomplish right now...
One, there´s the tiny chore of flexing my muscles and tidying up the room after it has been repainted and all.
Don´t get me wrong mom,
i appreciate the fact that you want to have the whole house spick and span
but, you know that I have a penchance for the old and loved...

*sigh*

...

Project Alpha, here we go...

I just need to have a bit of time and to spark up inspiration and what not to get myself started.
But for some reason, i guess my unconscious is saying that i save it for later as mom is not yet *done* enchanting our room *head desk*

COPE COPE COPE COPE COPE!

...

*sigh*

...

Someday I´ll fly away... leave all this to yesterday...

While on d bus

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 22:07:59 GMT

I take ds moment 2 blog wyl on my way home =)
i seriously want a new pc, 4 my "computing" needs ü lol ü
let's see.
Hmn, i guess what im doing ryt nw is a time saver ü yeah, random thoughts ulit ang exsena.

I realizd dat d closest instrument dat my ears can attune 2 s d piano..
Coz i was 1 in a choir, back in xtian hs..

Jst a random thought ü

house s in semi mess, what not mom s all arnd updating the paint n all. Havent gotten d chance 2 fix my tiny closet yet ._.

Hmn, kaya rn ngblog n me ngyn kasi sayang yng time pgkauwi, ilaan nlng s 2log or what nt ü

im really itching 4 project alpha.

*sigh*

nasusuka ak *barfs*
nkkahilo yng byahe, elk.

I miss blogging ._.
Seriously =(

ganda kc nung gngmit nming pc s office =)

let's see..

I rily do not fil well..

Im in a bus full f mutants, haha.

Cant wait 2 go home.. =)

and yeah..
I miss her =c

*sigh*

goöd am every1 ü

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Kaka-inspire... =)

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 19:35:31 GMT

Maki: Eh sa wala akong magustuhang iba...

Nico: (laughing) Wala kasi syang choice, hahaha

=)

2 years and counting na silang together...

~~~

Joy to Maki: Ang tawag ko na sayo ay Jack.

Maki: Bakit? bakit nga?

Joy to Maki pagkatapos tawagin si Nico: Jackpot ^^p

(credit of the punchline goes to coach trina ^^ )

Kaabang abang =)

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 19:10:56 GMT

Something to look forward to in the cinemas...

=)

http://starcinema.multiply.com/video/item/351/I_LOVE_YOU_GOODBYE_OFFICIAL_FULL_TRAILER

Mobile internet

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 17:47:38 GMT

Im planning to buy a new desktop pc... Yep, this xmas ü la lng. Nkakafrustrate kc n mg-internet or what not on my old desktop n nemo is not meant 4 hi-end pc/internet use.. Ang nakakainis p wt nemo ay wala syang backspace/delete keyboard function dahil nasira or something. Basta hindi sya gumagana...

Hay, sadness..

Anyhow, e2, blogging using my phone as sister is hogging d dsl ulit.. Ü

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Sat, 28 Nov 2009 13:06:42 GMT

Hay...

The real Joy is temperemental...
She has a really, really bad temper...
But like any other Cullen, she tries to tamper her instincts...

And so the only people who can unleash the real her
is her mother and well, =) her...

...

I have never gotten so angry with anyone, aside from mom and her...

Most of the time, I do not understand them...
It takes some time for me to realize what they were trying to communicate to me, in the first place...
And I so wish,
I could be,
A better man...

*sigh*

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 11:55:45 GMT

I feel like a canned tuna.

>_<

Mom had the room painted and so everything was moved and all that
and i wasn't able to decently blog for like so and so days...

and its not healthy for me.

Plus the fact that I had to delete certain posts in this blog coz i was accused of insinuating such and such

*rolls eyes*

Sobrang gusto ko syang idiscuss dito, or whatnot, pero my senses are telling me otherwise..

*sigh*

>.>

._.

sigh.

Ayoko na ngang pagusapan baka imay-quote nanaman ako ng kung anu anong article chenelin.

^^D

pardon the grumpy.

...

though seriously...

*rolls eyes*

But, yeah, they have a point...
so just to clean things up, I just deleted what i posted.

Tolerant me...

*sigh*

I guess i am now a "resposible blogger"

*snorts*

=(

~~~

I was able to finally restore some of my "belongings" into its proper place,
but if you ask me,
the newly painted walls are imposing...
I feel nauseuos (how do you spell this?) about it...

Yet and again, i am reminded how i am just a tenant in this house and it belongs to my mom.
*rolls eyes*

~~~

I'm planning to start Project Alpha ^^D

first, the space...
then, the furnishings ^^D

Yep.. planning to move out and all... but, it requires careful planning and what not, so there...

But, if you ask me, i have found the perfect nook, just the perfect building or what not.

Hmn...

its really going to be such a long term plan thing if you ask me...

Things that I really really, really like takes eons to get, but i get them anyway =)

I remember the days when i was just drooling over laptops in sm cyberzone when i was in college
and now, i have a netbook and was able to get my sister a really decent laptop...

*sigh*

I just need space, really...

A place to call my own =)

though, the drawback is,
I don't really want to live alone
so, there are times when I'm just a happy little puppy and all or what not

but then, when my mother starts to smother and rule my precious little world,
I plan for the easy escape...

*sigh*

=)

hindi na nga sumusunod ng maayos yung desktop pc ko eh, darn.

~~~

Sa ninja academy naman,
mm, hayun, we're being marinated in the training room, lol

*sigh*

I'm just so adjusting, if you ask me...

But I'm so happy that ur essence if there to keep me sane... =)

If I am Henry in The Time Traveller's Wife,
I think I've met our very own Alba ^^D

=)

It's really very interesting, if you ask me...

My daughter, teaching his daddy... =)

~~~

AT KUNG PWEDE LANG,
whoever is going to read this,
get a life of your own than try to tell me what i need to do.

This is a blog, and if you don't know what it means,
it means its a place in cyberspace where people put up their angst or what not
and I am human too, who needs a form of release...

judge me all you want, but don't tell me what to do...
Napakadaming etchiosera sa mundo,
so please,
get a life people...

Sabi ko nga,

Since when did people started paying attention to what i have to say?

...

Tao lang po,
nagkataon lang na hindi ko sinasabi sa ibang tao yung thoughts ko
and nagkataon lang na you can read it in black and white,
but the bottom line is?
Look behind your back,
people tell other people what they think of you...
I just so happen to put my thoughts in writing...

*sigh*

=)

I just hate people who tell me what i should think or feel...
Nagkataon lang na i get to be honest about them
when I access this page...

=)

and nagkataon lang din that i would like to be heard...
and the thought that other people may hear me out by reading this is enough...

*sigh*

Yeah, pathetic me... =)

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 00:18:33 GMT

I miss blogging.

But maybe, lately, I have been expressing the thoughts in my head
and i have been making contact, or what not in real life
na wala na me maisulat dito.

Or maybe, its the lack of time, or what not...

*sigh*

Where do begin?...

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 01:10:00 GMT

"Why do people treat the people who love them as shit?"
Harry asked.

"People take those who love them for granted."
Draco replied.

"Whatever happened to common courtesy?"
Harry asked. "Sometimes I just want to send them back to first grade to make them learn manners."

Draco chuckled.

"Well, in between first grade and the time they get to love another person, they long realized that manipulation, mind games and what not works faster and better."

"Whatever happened to asking?"

"People are afraid to get rejected."
Draco pinched Harry's nose.
"Even if its the most courageous and noble thing to do."

"But, you asked me to marry you, right?"
Harry pointed this out with his fork.

Draco looked down at his coffee and smiled.
"And that was the time, I started to become a better man."