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10 July 2009 @ 11:18 am

 
You really make me smile. =)

It makes me feel grateful to have met someone like you...

Iniisip ko nga, na may pagka-ibang universe na ata itong ginagalawan ko or something.

Sometimes I do consider this as my new life,
but with you, you make me feel as if this is my 2nd lifetime,
like I was already reincarnated or something.

Just me and my weird thoughts =)

I'm really happy right now ^_^
And I'm really thankful.

All I wish is for not to screw this up,
as pagod na pagod narin ako with tsunamis and what nots.

Sawa na ako sa away at tampuhan and all that shit.

Sawa narin akong masaktan at makasakit.

...

I'm no angel.

But I must have done something so good
to be blessed by you...

...


 
 
joyness
09 July 2009 @ 02:03 am


Gawd.

You have no idea how frustrating it was to surf the net using Ancient.

I have come to realize that Ancient as a Pentium 3 PC was not meant to be used to surf the net.

Ok naman kasi sya with usual browsing with the local files and all, super crappy lang tlg sya when using the net.

*sigh*

I'm in the office and as usual, using the internet kiosk to pass the time.

You have no idea how relieving it is to finally use a pc that was really meant for internet.

Hmn... then again, i was wondering kasi nakakapag-internet naman kami dati kay Ancient nung wala pa yung laptop ni Kathy, but then again, she was running on Win98 (while now, she is running on Win XP)

So there.

But I was able to find a soft spot naman kahit papaano and there,
I was able to find a way para naman makapagnet or something. (FASTER!)

Kakatamad sa bahay.

Wala rin kasi yung mom ko, she was at work starting 2pm.

So yun, nanood nalang ako ng mga ilang episodes ng charmed, season 6

(yep, hindi ko parin tapus, hehehe)

Though ok naman din...

~~~
 

Nevertheless, i have been having good rest kahit nandito ako sa QC.

Super straight ng tulog ko na. =)

~~~

Grrr...

Gusto ko pang magblog but in a few, kailangan ko naring magset-up and magprepare for today's shift ^_~

Just feels nice to be able to surf the net again without the hassles ^_^

Nagiging happy nanaman ulit yung cells ko, wehehe.

Happy start of the week shift!

 
 
joyness
07 July 2009 @ 11:42 pm
Thank you for making my life lighter.

Thank you for the guidance, the care... the lessons...

Thank you for making me smile, making me do things, i wouldn't normally do.

Thank you for being patient with me.

Thank you for understanding and I'm sorry for being such a hard headed student sometimes...

You really make me feel lighter, happier... more at peace...

Thank you for coming into my life...

Just like what I have once said in passing...

I didn't wait for you,

You just came at the right time...

=)
 
 
joyness
05 July 2009 @ 02:21 am


My cells are really happy right now ^_^
I've really been getting really good sleep lately and its making my day even brighter ^^

Hay...

~~~

2 weeks more of immersion and we'll be running for certification =)
4 hours on the phones nalang kami as per client's decision, so yun.
Ok naman, more time to chillax ^^

~~~

Hay...

~~~

 

Nakakamiss naring mag-internet sa bahay using my sister's laptop, hehehe.

Pag-uwi ko sa Tuesday si Ancient ang gagamiting kong pang-net.

Hay. medyo mabagal bagal pa naman sya when it comes to browsing.

Oh well.

...

=)

Iniisip ko na ngang i-upgrade yun eh, lalo na ngayong mas tangay tangay ni Kathy yung laptop nya.

Hmn.. but wala pa me pera, wehehe.

And nakakapanghinayang rin kasing i-upgrade kasi papalitan halos lahat and there is this itsy bitsy tinge of nostalia with Ancient, so yun. 9 years and running narin sya in fairness at kahit naka pentium 3 lang sya naka XP na sya, wehehe.

Bahala na.

Let's see kung anung gagawin ko sa kanya sa katagalan, hehehe
 
 
joyness
03 July 2009 @ 02:15 am
Nemo, my handy dandy Asus EEE PC is now lodged in my dorm.
He'll be keeping me company to allow me to write down my thoughts and what nots
(and maybe keep me sane, lol)

Hmn.. I'm not using him right now though,
I'm in the office, using the internet kiosk, passing the time.

...

I still have less than an hour to kill before my shift starts, so there you go.

~~~

There are a lot of thoughts swirling in my heads and I have a lot of questions in mind actually.
I'm kinda confused with the plot and story of my life right now
esp with the fact that a lot has been happening inside my head, lol.

Ok naman ang work, happy, just have to put some effort in it (or else it wouldn't be called work)
but very very rewarding. (esp on payday, hehehe)

I have found good friends in the wave,
one of which is a taurian like me.

Si Remz, ^^

Hayun, pareho kami ng mga trip and all that, hehehe.

Right behind me into the hallway and into the pantry, an orientation is going on.

Trust me, andaming tao.

hehehe.

Makes me wonder if isang account lang sila
or they are the prospects of today's speed hiring. ^_~

Hay.

Nakita ko nanaman sya.

*le sigh*

That's the problem when you see someone who sets fireworks in you:
You can only view them from afar,
if too close, you might get blinded...
but very beautiful... and spectacular...

Hay.

Nabili ko na nga pala yung bagong book ni Coelho.

But right now I am finishing rereading The Zahir,
Which makes a lot more sense to me now than ever before (3 years ago?)
So yun.

The new Paulo Coelho book is in Cavite, so there.

~~~
 
 
joyness
02 July 2009 @ 03:24 pm
Where do I begin?...

You caught me by surprise.

I wish there was someway that I can make the pain stop.
I wish there was a way that we could just go back to being...
... stop hurting each other...

You will always be my first.
You always have that place in my life, up in a pedestal.

Maybe, ...

Just maybe...

We could just stop hurting each other...
Maybe I could just show you how much you mean to me...
 
 
joyness
30 June 2009 @ 01:27 pm
Hay.  
I feel so exhausted.
Dapat day off namin ngayun pero may OT training kami and so yun.
Tas bukas Bday ni Mama, and itreat ko sya dito sa may UP tas hopefully makanood kmi ng movie Transformers.

I'm just tired.
Exhausted.

Napapagod nako.

(ay emo)


Wala lang.

It's our first week of taking in calls and all
and medyo you know, I just need a break...

(sigh)

For some weird reason, sleep is kinda just enough to restore energy for the upcoming shift
but what I really need is some form of rest.

From my mind, from my senses, from things.

...

I guess I just miss my family sa cavite na hindi ko nakita nung weekend
and my bed where I could just sleep all day.

But don't worry, ok pa naman...

(sigh)...

Hehehe.

I'm such a slacker kasi eh, so yun. Now taking its toll.

~~~

Hay...

~~~

Pagod din ang puso =)

Hay...

Iniisip ko nga eh...

Anu ba naman to...

Napaka dysfunctional.

Hay.
 

~~~

Sorry, pagod lang talaga ako...

*sigh*

~~~

grrr...

siguro part of the reason why I feel this way is that naabsorb ko yung negative energy nung notorious wavemate ko na scorpio and all.

Para bang, naabsorb ko yung negativity and bitterness nya na gusto nyang iimpose sa ibang tao
kaya heto, i feel numb na para akong nakakahon.

Pero mukhang ok naman.

...

I think.

Maybe its a blessing in disguise.

It's just exhausting, i tell you.



 
 
 
joyness
29 June 2009 @ 09:48 am
^_^  
Bakit ganun?
Ang gaan gaan ng pakiramdam ko sau...
Para bang...
=)
Ewan ko ba ^_^





 

Salamat.
Thank you for presence... =)

Thank you for being you... =)

Swaying room as the music starts...
 
 
 
joyness
29 June 2009 @ 09:30 am
Sa totoo lang, hindi ko alam kung saan ko sisimulang i-explain yung mga gusto kong sabihin.
Parang ang dami dami na kasi nung mga naiisip ko during idle moments at kating kati na akong magblog and ipost somewhere ang mga thoughts ko. Para din may record ako.

...

Hay...

~~~

Masakit lang kasi.

Siguro that's the best way I could put it Faithy.

Siguro, ito ay isa na lamang napakagandang idea
coz reality sometimes always end up biting me in the neck.

Don't worry, mahal ko parin sya.

Pero minsan, ang sakit sakit na.

Siguro nga makakahanap din tayo ng taong mas magmamahal sa atin,
yung mga magtatama ng mali natin,
yung hindi tayo papaasahin at sasaktan.

May hangganan din naman ako.

Hindi ko sinasabi na ayoko na, dahil suko na ako
Pero minsan, preno lang ba.

~~~

May iba na kasi syang mahal.

At masakit lang isipin na ako ang kausap nya about it.

Kamusta naman diba?

Oo, medyo weird ako kasi kaya kong maging friend sa mga taong minahal ko
and all

Pero sana naman, respeto sakin at sa nararamdaman ko di ba?

Sana lang.

Kaya naisip ko na hindi na siguro magiging reality
or wait, na-confuse na ako sa metaphor ko sa inyo.. hehehe

~~~

Ika nga sa isang movie,

antagal tagal kong hinintay na kausapin nya ako
na sabihin nyang napatawad na nya ako.

Ewan, ewan.
Hindi ko na alam.

Baka may masabi nanaman ako na ganito yung tingin ko
tas walk-outan ako or something
kasi mali

...


 


 
 
 
joyness
 
Excerpts from the book "Eleven Minutes":
"Passion makes a person stop eating, sleeping, working, feeling at peace. A lot of people are frightened because, when it appears, it demolishes all the old things it finds in its path.
No one wants their life thrown into chaos. That is why a lot of people keep that threat under control, and are somehow capable of sustaining a house or a structure that is already rotten. They are the engineers of the superseded.
Other people think exactly the opposite: they surrender themselves without a second thought, hoping to find in passion the solutions to all their problems. They make the other person responsible for their happiness and blame them for their possible unhappiness. They are either euphoric because something marvelous has happened or depressed because something unexpected has just ruined everything.
Keeping passion at bay or surrendering blindly to it - which of these two attitudes is the least destructive?
I don't know."
 
 
joyness
27 June 2009 @ 10:15 am
Now that I was able to get some decent shut-eye,
I can totally say that its now a brand new day for me.

For one thing, I plead temporary insanity (lol)

Hay...

Back to the rational 'ol me.

But don't worry, the post that you read previously was true.

^^

Me got a commendation, wehehe.

But the thing is, I also got a hotline...

I guess i got fed up with the other departments dropping the ball on me when I try to transfer the calls to them
and there was one call that I spoke up to the other rep as she wouldn't take the call and all
when the system perfectly says that I need to transfer it to their department.

The words that came out of my mouth was,
"But we we're trained to transfer this to you"

 

O_O

I know, i know... talk about the right choice of words *slaps head*

But seriously, you know how I am like, I have a thought in my head and it takes some time for me to get the right words out of my mouth and while I'm talking (and even right now writing) they get lost in translation and all
and what i had in mind was more of the word "instructed" but then the word "trained" just practically fell out of my mouth.

Kamusta naman diba?

Wahaha!

*no other way but to laugh about it*

._.

Funny thing is,
the rep didn't take my call, I ended up frustrated and my caller hung up while I was talking to the other rep.
Darn rep reported it to her sup and we received an email about it,

thus, the very apt name: I got a hotline

*headdesks*

Hay.

Sabi nga nung coach ko, (oooh, btw, i haven't told you, her name is Katrina and everybody calls her Trina, details later) may sungay daw pala ako. My Lead Trainer Joyce is just cool about it (which now makes me wonder and creeps me even more) and I think she understands na medyo high lang ako that time or something (but shit, nakakahiya tlg).

Hay...

we're going to listen to the call later on and will do proper coaching about it.

Sheesh.

Hay...

._.

sadness.

=(

Parang meron nakong hit mark for being a notorious person on the phone or something.
Yeah, alam nyo naman me, concerned much with how people perceive me.
Nakaka-alarm lang and all
what they all now think about me.

Baka isipin nila isa ako dun sa mga pasaway na agents on the floor and all
(ang bait bait ko nga eh)
but yeah, me no saint, but you get my drift right...

Hay...

sadness...

Though i think hindi naman ganun ang perception sakin ni Lead Trainer,
But still, there are a lot of management people on the floor that I'm trying to keep a good impression/image on
specially that some if not most, are of older age.

*le sigh*

So, yun lang.

Now that I am sane and rational,
kinda pinches me right in my forehead, hehehe

*slaps head*

=)

 

 
 
joyness
27 June 2009 @ 05:40 am
Where shall I begin? =)

...

There are a million thoughts running in my head and i couldn't be happier ^^

Well, I'm still in good spirits even if i lost one of my cellphones that contain my sun simcard.

I think it's a sign.

=)

Hmn... maybe I should also stop my mom from calling me by this certain name as I am getting queasy about it.

Tsk.

~~~

Feeling ko nagccalls parin ako, wahahaha.

Epekto ng Venti Mocha Frap ^^p

~~~

I'm feeling a bit restless.

But don't worry.

In my current sitting position,
I know that my body is sleeping while my mind is churning...

Hay...


 
~~~~

Hey hey hey!

I got a commendation kanina na hindi ko ineexpect, but trust me,
I have really made a good (long nga lang) call kanina with a Cardmember
as I was trying to explain her APR and Finance Charges on all of 3 cards O_O

naloka talaga ako nung pinaexplain nya sakin yung tatlong account tas sabi nya:

"OK, there's one more thing that I would like to ask..."

(Joy: slaps her head)

"... transfer me to someone with whom I can talk to and inform them of the great service you have given me"

*woot woot woot!*

Hahaha, naloka tlg ako dun, akala ko, magpapasend pa ng kung ano sa kanya, hehehe ^^

~~~

Hay...

Thank you Lord and thank you to everyone who's there for me in spirit ^^)

...

The sheperd finally reached the grand oasis with its luscious palm trees...
The festivities he witnessed brought delight and happiness to his heart.
He felt at peace
.

~~~

*rubs eyes*

*yawns*

~~~

I hope I'll be able to do my task later on for the shift =)

 
 
joyness
26 June 2009 @ 05:40 pm
I finally found the term:

Sabog.

Sana hindi na masyadong feeling sabog yung mga calls ko, lol.

Just a feeling, pero ok naman ang kalabasan.

Just have to smile for the extra customer care ^^p

Hay...
Focus!!!
 
 
joyness
Hay....

Ang weird ng tulog ko kagabi. or kaninang umaga.
Pagising gising ako and all that.

Well, then again, well rested naman ako so there.

Balik office nanaman in a few and balik calls, hehehe.

Happy naman, so far so good naman yung mga namomonitor. =)

O_O

Pero trust me, naloloka ako with it kasi when i take calls feeling ko sobrang nangangapa parin ako and all.

But, positive thinking lang dapat palagi ^^

~~~

So far ok naman yung monitors, just wondering with the TBASS and all.

Hay...

~~~

Ok naman yung AHT, not bad...

Slowly working on my metrics ^_~

Yup.

Think positive lang talaga dapat parati ^^

~~~
 
 
joyness
24 June 2009 @ 01:37 am


 
 
joyness
24 June 2009 @ 12:12 am
I remember the time nung nag-mucho´s kami
and kiko/Francis sang this song.
kaka-in love, hehehe.
galing kasi sa puso,
kaya sobrang heartfelt.

Embedded na sa memory ko yung pagkakakanta nya ng song na ito:

you’re the one that never lets me sleep
to my mind, down to my soul you touch my lips
you’re the one that I can’t wait to see
with you here by my side i’m in ecstasy

pre-chorus:
i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and I can see

chorus:
your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside

verse:
every time I hear our music play
reminds me of the things that we’ve been through
in my mind I can’t believe it’s true
but in my heart the reality is you


 
 
joyness
23 June 2009 @ 10:40 pm
Paano mo nga ba malalaman na mahal mo na ang isang tao?

Sabi ni Coelho, you may alreay be in love before you realize it...

It´s funny how you grew on me...

And the realization came in the most silent of days and all...

=)

Basta, napagtanto ko nalang.

Question is, anung gagawin ko with it?
Or, where will it take me?

Or...

=)

Ever since I visited my doctor and all,
nagkaroon ako ng peace of mind about it.

He told me things, na
oo nga naman, make sense.

Whatever traumas or misgivings I had,
fears and all that,
dissipated...

to be replaced by a peace of mind
and the ability to think more clearly...

(nga ba?)

It´s funny how i think of you in the middle of this rainy night and all
and how you make me smile and make me feel tingles and all that ^^)

Bakit nga ba kasi I feel so comfortable when I´m with you...

Hay...

=)

It´s really nice to feel that feeling...

To love again, in its earliest stages...

Kinda frail,

but feels good nevertheless.
 
 
joyness
23 June 2009 @ 02:14 pm
Nagstart na kami magcalls kanina! ^^D
I got an off start, kasi kinakapa ko pa yung timpla nung mga card members ko.
I ended up with an escalation for my 2nd call kasi sobrang disconnect kami ni member.

I guess that would be the baptism of fire, hehehe.

Promise, nung pagsabak ko sa floor parang nawala lahat ng pinag-aralan ko

^_^v doinks.

Pero happy naman sya, ang sarap mag-rapport and emphatize.

Now that I have the sample, I can now structure how to take the calls para buo sya.
hehehe, feeling ko kasi pag nakikipag rapport ako sa card member nakakalimutan ko na ang napakaraming bagay like procedures and relationship enchancers and all that, lol.

Nakakaubos lang ng baterya kasi nga you give yourself out in each and every call.
May pagka emotionally tiring, but somehow someway, in a good way =)

...


ngayun, bakasyon ulit ako for 2 days, (schedule kasi) tapos start na kami ng bagong week by Thu.
Yup, Tue-Wed yung off ko ^^

~~~

Kanina, nagyaya si remz na lumabas, though hindi kami nakapagbonding to the max kasi nagjoin-in si jaila, the bday girl.

Hehehe.

~~~

Hay, btw, ok nako ^^D

Siguro, kumbaga sa nerves, lagnat laki lang yung nangyari sakin.

hehehe.

Sana nga.

Dumating ako sa bahay mag-8am na dito sa cavite,
and i immediately crashed to the bed.

Happy naman ang tulog, and ito nga, sipag sipagan na nakaupo at nag-iinternet.

Siguro connecting with my cardmembers that way really is healthy, hehehe.

It makes me flow, hehehe.

Ah, you wonder bakit sipag sipagan ang tawag ko sa state ko ngayun?

Nung nagdaan na weekend kasi, tulog lang ako ng tulog and I really felt so tired and all that.

But, i´m back to my feet and I love it.

Best moments in life talaga yung gising ako and up and running.

I love working, i love engaging myself in fruitful activities and all that, hehehe. =)

~~~

Hmn... its been a while din since the last time na nasa mood ako, hehehe.

Maybe the fact that I have the house and our room for myself adds up.

Pag nandito kasi si kapatid, baha, wahaha.

Nah, its just that he stuff and all that is everywhere and i give room to her and all.

Ngayun, its just me and the house and mom ^^)

I just love the sense of own space, hehehe. ^^D

Sarap ng may sariling bahay, hehehe.

Lookks like I´m going to enjoy the day offs for this schedule ah ^^

~~~

Hmn.. ang daldal ko ^^D.

Calls, more calls, hehehe.

~~~

You know, I really wish na may dsl connection kami sa bhaus, para naman I can blog anytime and all that, in the comforts pf my own room ^^

Naiisip ko nanaman kung paano pag nagsstudy na ako ulit, hehehe.

Pwede kaya yun?

...

Hmn...

~~~

Anyways, let us not talk about studies muna, napapagod ako just thinking about it, hehehe.

~~~

(sigh)

And yet again, I think of you...

(sighs)

^^

yeah, mahal na nga kita =)
 
 
joyness
21 June 2009 @ 07:59 pm
I miss my dad.

After all these years, it has finally sunk in that I will never see him again,
maybe in the next life or what not

Thing is, it makes me miss him.

Yun lang.

Sad...

Hay...

=)

~~~

I remember the time when I kept on saying that what I want for Christmas was a dinner with my father...

Right now?

Just one hug...

Just one hug would do...

(sigh)

God I miss him.

...

It has been quite a number of years without him din...

=)

Oh well.

=)